i got the hurt more

I saw her glimpses,
but it has holded my heart
at the time, i didn't have anything making me interest
she's prisoned me, ooo god. help me!
i have to spend my self out

becoming control engineering with strong math basic

We know that foreign engineering has strong basic in math, physic and professional in their sphere.

There nothing short way to overtake them, do what they have done.
good basic in foundation and fight as you can do.

this noon, I have borrowed three books supporting my sphere, they are modern control theories, numerical computation and calculus with geometry analyses.
good luck guys, have nice persuiting your dream

jogja-jakarta 15-16 April

reading novel in train,
a cup copy in Jatinegara station
take abath in Pasar Klender,

sight seeing while listening dangdut,
"malam ini, malam terakhir bagi kita..." :)
and other hits songs

now, i am waiting for work time so that i am going to sensorindo office.
good luck

feri, warnet on Pasar Klender, 7:48, 16 April 2009

God, I feel so alive

Since yesterday, I have got news about hers. I really feel so alive. but I couldn't get hers profile. I hoped by knowing her from blog, friendster profile I could know much hers hobbies, birt date, habit and everything. I will do something for her. It ok, am i supposed to surrender with this condition. God, i like her but I don't have any braveness at all. Honey, If You read this writing. I like you so much.

get fall in love more
something making me crazy much
she is my angels. the invisible and opaque angels. just hers smile.
this may change. I don't know. we don't have nothing data at all.

In progress

in progress on KAUST scholarship. there was email notifying about TOEFL legalized. I don't know they are supposed to be professional. don't they give assurance about the test. We have paid guy! we can sue ours.

I hope Allah will guide me to best place, best environment.

it stagger me

I have already opened my mail address. there was email sent to me notifying that i have been accepted in University Teknologi Petronas.

honestly, i am seting up. i have sent email confirmation that i will go there and consider untill july 2009. it is important thing because i am facing other bigger targets. let me struggel harder.
God, give me your bless and clue.

i feel so alive but set up as well. come on!!!

i have done

i have already passed the second stage in this scholarship. I will learn how to think propostionally. Of course, my task just prepare my self well. the result is not my bussiness. Now, I just can pray and next my target.
if there is no hampering, i will meet great Professor this noon. i will ask his recommendation.

Now, i will make other application. goodluck.

i could pas first stage

it is so hard. i was nervous. I couldn't spent out my best ability. But Allah gave me his bless. I could pass. Next Friday on 08.00, i will be interviewed more. note! my task is just prepare maximally, the result is privilege of Allah. have nice striving your dream. never surrender guy, all just in timing problem.

one step already passed shows something great

There was great achievement which i already got. I feel so alive, it is my old dream. look i can do it. This target has been commitment since four year ago, personal problem always makes it failure in half way. today, i could pass the mental block. it is great body, i have mastered in this skill. the next target is master in programming and algorithm.

the missing stair

you will fell hard burden when you try to reach or accelerate your ability. The missing stair is step which you pass when you try to reach your dream or destination fast. why? evolve your strategy well, decide every step before you leave so far. Nothing way to evict it, you have to back and improve it carefully. trust me!! what am i supposed to do now? I am getting that probelm as well......

reaware where my position now is

1 december 2008, 22:17 pm. warnet close to campus...
I have already come from my senior high school class mate. He told that on 28 December he is going to get married.. thank god. Give your bless for them, delightful family.

we also talked over about future and impending dream. Rigth, I knew that I am in low position of living circle. I also told him that almost people, whether they are now succes or not yet, will get certain weight burden. What diffirence one to another? I guess, burden distribution. just that.

I reaware where my position is. I have made strong strategy and just pray the luckyness will come to my side. All choice definetly has consequences which has to paid.

Face the future with believeness, all will be better.

di kampus ini

di kampus ini,

telah ditamankan kemerdekaan

segala despot

takkan meruntuhkan

mimbar kami

[taufik ismail, 1966, jatuhnya orla]

ket: despot=>kekuasaan yg zhalim

in the way of evolve my proposed thesis

I've already finished browsing anything about infrared theories, i spent about 2 hours. i will read again in the home but seemly i need take a rest and knit my struggling. have nice day.

engineering feeling worry

Nobody is infallen. engineering as well. today, i spent alot time to explore everything about Infra Red algorithm. seem, I have found new algorithm for particular case ( just early assesment).
ok, all which we do as part of long life process. keep spirit.